Stress manifests itself different and unfortunately for me, it seems to take a hold of me in a vice-like grip. My body and confidence compress like a spring in a Jack-in-the-box when the lid is pressed shut, and I feel trapped in a room where the curtains are constantly shut. Maybe it’s a result of my, at time, chaotic schedule or just due to how poor I am at finding balance, but it’s still something that I’m trying to figure out how to conquer.
To say that I felt overwhelmed last month would be a gross understatement. Forced into bed with a tidal wave of nausea, my uni course was placed on the backburner at the worst possible time, as on the horizon were my three looming deadlines. I’ve never been one for public speaking; something it sends my heart into overdrive, erratically thumping against my chest as though threatening to shatter my rib cage. However, channelling my inner ghost whilst haphazardly ticking off the objectives of the brief made this all the more impossible to deal with.
For me, exam-related stress is the worst, and result days are up there as one of the worst possible scenarios for me to deal with. The full-body shakes that consumed me on GCSE result days made me mimic an inflatable man stood outside of a car manufacturers office, and on my last driving test, my quivering lip gave way for a flood of tears complete with snot when I failed within the last ten seconds. Which is why today’s result day was especially bad for me.
But I didn’t fail!
Okay, I could have done better, but the release of negative energy that just left my body caused the tension in my shoulders to disappear like puppet strings were snipped with some impressive, silver scissors. Retaining my overall mark was what was most crucial to me, and for it to stay consistent is the best result I could’ve hoped for. Overall, however, it’s taught me that I need to have some self-belief.
Over the past couple of weeks, I’ve been looking into manifestation. I stumbled across it whilst looking for some outreach places for clients at work, with a recent post on a blogger I was using for a sponsored post. It’s something that I’ve been aware of in the past but never used – minus one time in the back of a taxi whilst I proudly proclaimed to my friend over facetime that the secret had worked (I was with a boy, what can I say).
The Law of Attraction is something that I’m not properly acquainted yet, but I do believe going forward that it’s worth giving a try. I have a couple of smaller goals that I would like to try and accomplish this year, but a few milestones that I could use a little help with along the way. At the moment I’m working on removing my abundance blocks and reprogramming my subconscious so we’ll soon see.
Do you manifest? If so, I would love some pointers as I am definitely not educated enough on the subject. Let me know!